Would it be cheesy to whisper that I am grateful for you as we begin to drift off the sleep together?
I'm extremely grateful, and all the reasons are pretty selfish.
Like I never thought I could have a healthy relationship. You've shown me I can.
Your dedication to eating healthy has certainly caused me to eat healthier, and inspired me to want to be healthier.
I've even been struggling with the desire to quit smoking. Which, I haven't yet. I'm smoking as I type this...
Your incredible patience, and gentleness with kiddo has helped me improve as a parent.
Your passion for seemingly simple things in life makes me want to follow my passions.
Your gentle encouragement gives me a little more courage.
I think you're wonderful and amazing.
Part of me fears I see you this way because of the BPD favorite person complex. That also leads to the fear of the BPD split, where I'll suddenly see you as all bad instead of all good if you ever make a mistake in my eyes.
But, you have been an amazing part of my life the last 9 months. In ways you'll probably never know. I don't want you to ever leave it, not just because I feel like a better person, but because I see you and love you for you.
Thank you,
Happy Thanksgiving,
BPD GF
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