A Text I Actually Sent

Dear BF,

I just want you to know you really do mean so much to me and I really love every moment we're together. 

You know when Kid acts out or I have an anxiety moment or something I feel bad and worry  like, "this is it, this is gonna scare him away," but then I'm always relieved and impressed by how you respond. Where your just so supportive, and calm, and creative in helping. It's one of the reasons I'd so much like to be with you, build a life with you, ask you to be part of my and Kid's life that much more. And I do want to experience life with you. 

And I want you to know that I do eventually want and am excited to experience other relationships with and a part from you (we both want to be Poly!) with you as my primary partner in life to come home to and to able to rely on each other through good and bad times.. and the rollercoaster of parenting Kid lol. And I want to be able to be there for you too. And maybe grow old with you and and and... 

Usually when I write out these long nonsensical mind vomits I don't send them to you. But I don't want to keep hiding myself from you either (she types as she edits out a bunch of crazy). I love you, and I want to be with you. Your coming over more often has meant a lot and it's all just felt really good and right and the past year with you has been so wonderful and I'm excited to experience more. 

Ok I'll shut up now,

Your Crazy BPD GF